Tuesday, 4 October 2011

In the Beginning...

I blog already but I felt it was important to have a blog that provides a space for me to say all of the things I cannot say on my other blog. Somewhere I can share my fears, hopes, failures and victories. No matter how big or small.

You see, I have cancer. At the moment I am not sure whether I am curable or not. I hope, but as this is the second time I have had this horrible disease, I know my oncologist is not optimistic. I lurch from being incredibly positive, to being terrified and not daring to plan beyond the next few weeks.

I have three absolutely wonderful, bright, amazing children and the thought that I may leave them prematurely fills me with the worst dread and fear.

I worry that I will not protect them from the worst of this, that I will fail in the main duty I have as a parent; to be here for my children.

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